Melancholy Of The Broken Heart

Dear Future Husband, With you as my guide, I just want to follow you to lighten off my load. With you as my captain, I would go after you to lead me down this lonesome road. And when I feel that hope is gone, I wish you could give me strength to move on. And when I believe troubles hide my way, I wish you will be here next to me. I won’t promise you to be perfect, because I am not. But to be just right for you, I assure that. Please show me to be stunningly nice. So that I can be flawlessly fit for you.

Dear Heart, As you go through along the days, You have encountered too many things You have to bear the truth and realities That sometimes might be awful & terrifying. Dear Heart, I know you’ve been stabbed, break and burn, I know you’ve been tearing apart and hurt, But you keep beating and never quit, Because you knew that’s the only hope. Dear Heart, I swear this will end soon. I promise you’ll be fine. Just hold on and believe me, That you will be relieved again.

We are like that twinkle star Dancing across the twilight sky Brighten up the dark night With our shining light But I’m not supposed to be here I’m completely out of place If it seem like I’m sparkling It’s probably a reflection of others So I set apart from all the rest As I know I don’t quite fit in While other stars are not moving I’m down like a falling star Somehow I have my own reason I let go just to move on Sooner or later you’ll find out This falling star will gorgeously out shine

I once had a friend that I know, And he cared for me so. All of sudden he let go, I suppose to expect that but I’m slow. He gave me more than adore, But he never thought that I know. My feelings were there although it not shows. I only realize on the day he decides to go. How is it I can’t tell him before? How is it only now it’s become too late? I’m now aware that he’s no longer mine, And still hoping the ache will ease in time. Even though he’s leaving, this isn’t goodbye. Because he’s a friend that I keep inside.

Why do I love you? I’m still wondering To see you out of nothing But it keeps me moving Why do I love you? I’m still surprise It’s like to witness a sunrise But I’m going to keep my senses Why do I love you? I’m still not sure It’s seems that is so pure Yet, it is a cure Why do I love you? Like I always do...

Jeff Thomas-azuzephre.net Ever since I met you, My eyes only crave to see you My ears only want to hear you My heart only beating for you And since that day, I’ll smile without any reason I’ll laugh without any excuse I’ll giggle without any cause But then you’re gone, All I see is blackest blank All I hear is soundless wind All the beats suddenly paused Afterward you’re disappeared, The reason to smile is missing The excuse to laugh is mislead The cause to giggle is misplaced

Jeff Thomas-azuzephre.net How I wish I know what he think of me If he lets me see through himself How I wish I have courage to tell the truth If I tell him what I’m feeling What if he knew? What would he do? Would he give me a chance? What if he knew? What would I do? Would I take the chance? But to see him right now He seems so much happier Even if I could read his mind Would it make any difference?

As I walked on this lonely road I’ve only perceive shattered dreams That’s full with sadness and confusions         While happy ending is just an illusion I’m aching to see you smile Heartbreaking to see you laugh I try to hold on and stand tall But my tears start to fall I want to act tough and be strong Except the pains still get along Lying to myself, I don’t mind When I still wish you be mine You promise to give me the world But to only to take it back You swear to be the sole Then, you wouldn’t hurt me this bad I know I shouldn’t be so depressed Coz it makes me more distressed And though my heart were broke I found it still beat with the same stroke Jeff Thomas-azuzephre.net

I would love to step into real world which people call it 'REALITY', Is it wonderful like they said? Or just plain and empty, And they said that reality is different from fantasy, Real world are much more adventured, full with mysterious, filled with honesty. I would love to in touch with that reality but I’m still out of certainty, The castle in the sky seems so much fun, seems so greatly magical, That catches my attention for a long year’s time Until I’m used to lived in that life But now it’s time to move on Since reality is even when you stop believing in it, it doesn’t go away, Then I’ll face the fact, count the truth I’ll get through it all by my way because my reality is not your reality.   Jeff Thomas-azuzephre.net

Jeff Thomas-azuzephre.net  I ignored others just to be with you But sadly, you ignored me too I can see you in my future But sadly, you can’t even see me I thought you have the key to my heart But sadly, you dropped it in the ocean I try to find the beauty of happiness But sadly, I only found the charm of loneliness I thought love have been part of me But sadly, it never comes near me

They said I’m hypocrite, And I said, “Yes! It’s true!” They said I’m self-centered, And I said, “I can be in middle too” They said I’m heartless, And I said, “ I don’t even have one!” They said I’m senseless, And I said, “Its because I’m cold” They said I’m ugly, And I said, “I much pretty than duckling” They said I’m crazy, And I said, “Not until you see me flying” They said I’m boring, And I said, “I’m more than monotonous” They said I’m stupid, And I said, “I’m sure I’m stupendous” They said I’m bad, And I said, “I’m worse than cruel” They said I’m stubborn, And I said, “Yeah, I’m disobedient” They said…. But I said, “Well, enough said!” Jeff Thomas-azuzephre.net

Think of you will make me smile Since then, I never forget you even for a while Over a year you filled up my day Make me smile and laugh all the way And now I'm gone to somewhere new Right beside me, there always you Do remember me that's the wish I am to you I'll miss you, I always do =) Jeff Thomas-azuzephre.net  

Jeff Thomas-azuzephre.net Sorry for not realize it Sorry for ignore it Sorry for everything that you hate Sorry for the mistake that I've made Sorry for not being so understanding Sorry for not too caring Sorry for keep you waiting Sorry for what I'm not saying Sorry for making so many excuses Sorry for not keeping my promises Sorry for taking so long to change So Sorry for all the trouble you have I'm So Sorry Dear (~_~)

Since the first time I saw you I never expected that were true You seems so smart and cool And I couldn't even forgetting you You just so far away from me That's why we seldom meet Yet, I felt something inside deep But I am so afraid to speak When I heard you for a while That's enough to makes me smile I wish you could be mine Where I can keep you in my mind Jeff Thomas-azuzephre.net

Jeff Thomas-azuzephre.net Every time I saw you Every moment I look into your eyes It make me want to reach your heart But it seems so far away Why are you try to run? Where are you try to hide? What are make you scare? When you’ll give a chance? But it’s okay to run, As long as I’m your destiny It’s fine to hide If you want me to seek Don’t be scare coz’ I’ll take care of you Just give me a chance Then I’ll prove it right.

Jeff Thomas-azuzephre.net I’m loosing hope on you Since the day you lost from my view But it’s hurt me very true To know that it’s only you It’s my fault to be a fool To trust on something new It’s seems to me so beautiful Then regret I had a few Now I have to let go of you I’m sorry that’s all I have to do You should tell me the truth So that there will be no hope for you

We've been together for so long, We've been encounter all the challenges, We've been through all the grey days, For the sake of our dreams. When my world is empty, When my world has no light, and when my world is a chaos, You gave me hope without asking any return. Even i never say it, Even i never show it, You are like my pair of wings, To let me flyin' high, and let me grab the stars. Because you are my greatest friends i ever had, Because you are Noor Khalis, Siti Hasniza & Norazizah ;p Thanks babe v(^-^)v Because they are Noor Khalis, Siti Hasniza & Norazizah

I’m  sorry  dear, I have to tell you the  truth , About the feeling that I’ve hide. Never know what’s went wrong, Our  love  has come to the end.. It’s much  better  for us to broken up from to feel badly  hurt , It’s much better for us to be  separated .. and just let me be  alone I rather let you  go  to find the meaning of love again. It’s not even our  fault to never know that our love is  fade  away Even I’m not sure there will be another one but just let me be alone…. Jeff Thomas-azuzephre.net

Jeff Thomas-azuzephre.net I wish someday you would see me, even just once.. I wish someday you would meet me, even just once.. I wish someday you would notice me, even just once.. I wish someday you would know me, even just once.. I wish a wish that is not easy to find I wish a wish that is not easy to fullfill I wish a wish that is not easy to meet I wish a wish that is not easy to be real But yet, I'm still wish that my wish woluld come true even just once...just once!

Jeff Thomas-azuzephre.net Once we are friend, Telling each other to be frank, But when I’m not there, You’re gone missing don’t know where. My mistake for not with you, But yet you know the reason why, Still you’re going to another, Leave me like a rotten feather. Now, you’re happy with your’s own, To tell the truth, I’m glad you’re gone, Seems like I never care for, Coz you’re not my friend, no more!